Starting the Blog: A Space for Honest Reflection

For as long as I can remember, I have pondered the idea of creating a blog. The thought has lingered in my mind so much that I now find myself uncertain about how best to use this space. My struggle lies in making it a safe place to express my own thoughts on motherhood, especially in a society where artificial intelligence is booming and the debate over what is right and wrong feels ever-present.

Motherhood and My Professional Life

As a Mam from Yorkshire, I am blessed with two beautiful children. Professionally, I am confident in my role as a Palliative Care Nurse, a position I have held for nearly a decade. Yet, when it comes to being a mam—a role I have embraced for close to seven years—I find myself far less assured.

The Balancing Act of Two Roles

Both motherhood and nursing bring a mix of good and bad moments. At work, I can leave my responsibilities at the door, ready to pick them up again at my next shift. In contrast, the role of Mam is relentless; we never truly switch off. Whether it’s ensuring the children have enough uniform for the week, keeping school admin up to date, making sure they complete three reads a week, or remembering every “stay and play” session, the to-do list feels endless. If I cannot attend an event due to work, the mum guilt is very real.

Support and Challenges

It often feels as though schools forget that parents need to work to make ends meet. Grandparents are an invaluable lifeline—without their ongoing support, free childcare, and willingness to help, we would struggle to manage. They make it possible for us to have the occasional night out, and for that I am truly grateful. Of course, there are always critics who say, “Well, you shouldn’t have had kids if that’s what you wanted to do.” But let’s be honest—parents need a break, and sometimes it’s good for the children to spend time away from us. Amen to that!

The Purpose of This Blog

Through this blog, I hope to create a platform where I can discuss the various challenges parents face, the reality of mum guilt, and my ongoing project of writing. Away from my roles as Mam and nurse, I am attempting to write a novel in the midst of everything else.

Personal Struggles and Finding My Voice

On my personal Facebook page, I have shared about my experiences with undiagnosed ADHD. I often find myself starting multiple projects and rarely finishing any. Last year, for example, I contemplated starting a podcast, but that idea quickly faded once I saw the cost of recording apps. It seems that almost everything nowadays comes with a monthly subscription—parents certainly don’t have a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow!

Embracing Honesty and Self-Expression

What I have found most challenging about starting this blog is the courage to say what I truly feel. I am now learning to find my voice through writing and to express my thoughts openly.

Writing as a Turning Point

The turning point came when I was discussing the book I am currently writing. The excitement I felt while sharing my ideas was mirrored by those listening, who were eager to read what I would eventually finish. That moment was the switch I needed.

What to Expect

This blog may feature snippets from my book or appearances from its characters, interwoven with my real-life experiences. I also want to share the chaos of school pick-ups and drop-offs (which I truly dislike!), and the challenges of finding mum friends as a 30-something over-sharer. I may have already shared too much, but I hope other mums can relate and see the rawness in the many roles I juggle.

Buckle up and enjoy the ride!